The Hope of a Free World - Chapter 3 - MessedupFan (2024)

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When the announcement of the Third Quarter Quell declared that the tributes would be pulled from the existing pool of victors, you were itching for a drink. No, you were itching for the drug you take when you have to entertain a client you don't like. You wanted to feel numb. You didn't want to think about having to experience the anxiety of a reaping once again.

You don't alter your mind to escape the harsh reality. As much as you want to. It still plays with your mind even though you knew this was going to happen. Finnick warned you that this is what their meeting in the Capitol was about. As soon as the broadcast is over, Finnick storms into your house and pulls you out. It needed to look real since your house was most likely bugged. You can hear Annie's cries from the house they shared as he walks you over. She doesn't know what's going on, it's for the best. According to Finnick, this was the only home in the Victor's Village that had all of its recording devices removed. He made sure of it.

He threw you on the couch as he began to pull on his hair and mutter to himself. He was really good at putting on a performance. "Mags," he left and returned with the older woman a few minutes later. That was everyone Annie knew that he could trust in the district.

Finnick doesn't say anything coherent, mostly muttering to himself. He gives Annie a heavy dose of sleep syrup and he carries her to bed when it kicks in. "Okay," he starts as he sits in front of you and Mags. No longer putting on the panicked act for Annie. Now she knows he's talking to you and to Mags. That's all she needs to know. "Here's the plan, we're going to train with each other to fight. But I'm going to need you to stop being anti-social. You haven't mentored a winning tribute yet and I'm going to need your help in there."

You nodded even though you hated that your contribution to the rebellion had to be talking to other people. "Well, I thought Mags was going to be there with me," you remind them nervously as you fiddle with your medallion.

Mags and Finnick exchange a look and your eyes bounce between the two as they both shake their heads. "Sable can't be trusted. We tried to recruit her without her knowing but she is stuck in her ways. The Capitol hasn't hurt her the way it has us. She wasn't ever... desirable in their eyes so she doesn't know what Snow does to us." You scowl and shake your head. Even without being prostituted, you'd hoped that a fellow survivor of the Hunger Games would see that this wasn't a way of life. "Annie... she isn't an option. Mags is going to have to volunteer in order for this to work," Finnick concludes. You nod.

"Looks like we have a lot of work to do," you say with a sigh.

It was more than just combative training and learning how to charm sponsors. It was also learning about your escape out of the Capitol. Wanda even paid a heavy price to be allowed to see you one last time before the reaping just to show you the way the two of you, and anyone else you need to rescue, are going to make it out of there when the arena gets shut down. You couldn't believe it when you found out that she was part of the resistance. But when she revealed that her motivations were the same as yours, it all made your heart flutter. Neither of you have felt free enough to say the words. Even without hearing her say those three words, you could hear it in the silence. You could feel it on the way home. You didn't need much more than that for the time being.

At the reaping your heart jumps with anxiety as your name is called. You stand forward as you wait for the process. Volunteers only occur after the reaping winner is introduced to the audience. You make sure to hold your head up high and only drop it when Finnick inevitably volunteers in your place.

There is no time allotted for goodbyes. Which Finnick would have been okay with had they not denied Annie to join. She wasn't mentally fit to take on the role of a mentor and according to the head Peacekeeper that escorted you, Finnick, and Mags to the train; it was an order given by the President that this year, they only needed one mentor for the tributes. You were still meant to mentor because you hadn't successfully found your replacement.

Finnick was nervous the entire ride to the Capitol. He knew that it was possible that Annie wouldn't be allowed to mentor. She was exempt in the past since she was more unstable than others. They developed a system to give her the best life possible but she still held a reputation for not being all there mentally. He hoped that his allies in District 4 would be able to get her out of there. But there was no guarantee.

You tried your best to comfort him but there wasn't much you could do that wouldn't give away the mission. That wouldn't give away their private relationship. You didn't want to risk exposing them, even if there's a possibility that President Snow already knows. You weren't going to do anything that will haunt you to believe it was you who confirmed his suspicions.

Through the training period you are constantly meeting with Haymitch to gauge whether or not he's been able to convince the Mockingjay and her boy with the bread to team up with your tributes. The three of you nearly jumped for joy when Haymitch informed you that the young woman chose Mags. None of you expected her to want to team with Finnick. His job was to focus on gaining Peeta's trust. She wasn't going to team up with anyone without his approval.

Next came the time to shmooze the people in the Capitol placing bets and offering their support as soon as the Hunger Games started. You put every donation into your communicuff so you could eventually afford a gift to send. You pretended to accept many drinks and because you had been drunk plenty of times in the past, you knew how to play the part. Not as well as Haymitch of course. With Haymitch's help, the two of you were able to get a few parachutes with supplies here and there but the prices are much higher this year since it's a Quarter Quell and everyone wants to help their favorite former victors. You get lost in the act of cheering on your tributes on the screen and manipulating people into placing their money into your pockets.

On the day that Beetee tells his remaining allies in the arena that he has a plan, you are promptly reminded why you're there to begin with. That's when you started to get nervous. Knowing that you had to escape without being seen. If you failed, it could mean the end of you and you weren't ready to sacrifice yourself for the cause yet. The whole reason you joined was to safeguard a future with the woman you loved. It was hard for you to focus, you were so on edge. You jumped every time someone approached you to hand you money to help your team. Any movement had your eyes scanning the crowd for a white suite with a black tinted shield on their helmets with guns pointed at you. There never were any. They remained on the other side of the doors that surrounded the room. The paranoia was eating you alive as if you were in the arena once again.

When they started wrapping the tree with the wire, Wanda finally appeared from the sea of Capitolites. You didn't know if she was ever in the room before that day but you were more than relieved to see her. "We have to go," she whispered urgently as she grabbed your hand. You didn't process fast enough to move so Haymitch tossed a drink in your face.

"I am so sorry, I can be such a clutz," he grabbed you by your bicep. "Move," he muttered as he smiled in the direction of the curious eyes that landed on the pair of us. "Nothin' t'see here folks!" He slurred with a sloppy grin. He was drunk for so long that everyone bought the act.

You began to move and follow Haymitch and Wanda. Haymitch was staggering so the two of you walked out of the area with him leaning on the both of you. The Peacekeepers almost didn't pay the three of you any mind.

Effie Trinket, the escort for District 12, trailed behind the two of you and she almost spoiled the escape as the Peacekeepers stopped her then asked the three of you to stop as well. "Excuse me, I am the only one with the key to the District 12 penthouse!" The Peacekeeper then asked why she couldn't take Wanda's spot in carrying Haymitch to his room and before you could stutter on a response, Effie was quick on her feet. "And risk flattening my feathers," she scoffed as she clutched her pearls, "I think not!" The Peacekeeper apologized and let all four of you go.

At the first checkpoint, you and Haymitch discard your communicuffs so they can't track you anymore. But that meant that the four of you had to move faster. They were made to alert authorities when prematurely removed.

There was a little bit of a hiccup in the plan when a man approached Wanda, appearing out of nowhere. Stalling the four of you while he pulled her to the side to talk to her. You send Haymith and Effie off to continue to the rendezvous point as you stay back to ensure that Wanda gets there as well. The man's name was Vision, you overheard her when she asked him to let her go. There seemed to be some sort of history there. He looked like a government official. You couldn't really tell what his significance was. But when he grabbed Wanda again and threatened to expose her, you did what life in the academy at District 4 raised you to do. He didn't hear or see you coming when you came up behind him and snapped his neck.

Wanda's eyes widened but she shook her head and got back into focus. "Let's go, we have to get out of here now." You nodded and followed. When you got to the tunnel you were surprised to see a few of the other mentors there as well. You figured that they were on the side of the Capitol since their tributes were but each of them revealed their crackers with the mockingjay symbol on them. You did as well. There was a head count before every person could eat them to get rid of them.

In the small gathering of people with a mix of mentors, camera crew, and what appeared to be Avoxes, Wanda recognized another man and this time she ran into his arms with tears in her eyes. You almost began to think that she had fooled you into believing that you were more than a purchase for her until she pulled away from him and you could get a good look at him.

There was a small conversation once about him. Wanda had pictures of him all over her home and you once asked if she was married. She laughed at first but her expression fell as she realized you were holding a picture frame in your hand. She took the frame and placed it face down on the shelf as she muttered, "He was my twin before he became a traitor." That was the last time you ever asked about him.

Seeing her beam at him through her tears told you all you needed to know. Even if you were the reason she continued to be part of the rebellion, he was the reason she first sought them out. You couldn't wait to be able to talk freely with her in District 13. You knew that there were many sides of her that you had yet to explore and you couldn't wait to get to know her on a much deeper level.

Once everyone boarded the stolen hovercraft you took a deep breath as you hoped that the plan in the arena went down as smoothly. But even if it didn't, you knew that this was just the beginning of the new world.

District 13 was strict. Each day you had a schedule tattooed on your forearm and you'd face harsh consequences if you didn't obey it. The meals were tasteless and the portions were less than you had gotten used to since becoming a victor. The training regimen was beyond what you were used to but it was the only thing about the district that you enjoyed because it was the easiest adjustment. Not to mention the times you got to spar with Wanda were some of the best foreplay the two of you got to experience.

Unfortunately the two of you didn't get nearly as much time together as either of you hoped. Since you weren't married, they wouldn't let the two of you share a living space together. So she lived with Pietro, while you lived on your own. It was frustrating but you weren't willing to marry her over a distaste for the living arrangement. You wanted to wait until the country was free and so did she.

The schedule allotted thirty minutes for family time. A decent break between the education and training for most of the citizens of District 13. You suppose it gave time to remind those who forget, what they are fighting for exactly. You and Wanda used that time to learn the sign language that the Avoxes use as communication. Wanda felt so disconnected from her twin because she couldn't communicate with him the way she used to. Pietro was very patient and helpful when it came to the private lessons between the three of you.

"I'm happy to have him back but," Wanda sighed as she laid in your arms. "I wish I had done something to protect him."

You frowned as you lightly caressed her arm. You looked at her for a moment and admired her natural beauty. In District 13 appearance wasn't a priority the way that it is in the Capitol and certain districts. Wanda didn't need the wigs or the heavy makeup in order to fit in here. She finally got to be her true self. "There was nothing you could have done for him. If you had tried, you would have ended up just like him. You might not have even gotten here," you tried to comfort her.

Wanda sat up and faced you, "I um," she looked down as she started to trace patterns on your chest. "I'm the reason he got in trouble in the first place."

You made a face, "How so?"

"Vision," she started and looked at the wall beside her. "The man you killed during our escape. He, uh, we were engaged. He worked in the government and he knew powerful people." You nodded to show that you were following along when she did finally look at you. "And he witnessed Pietro committing an act of treason. He wasn't going to turn my brother in while we were engaged. I didn't know that he had seen Pietro do something illegal." You rubbed Wanda's back as she spoke. It was clearly a difficult topic for her. "Vision never did anything out of the kindness of his heart. And he had a bit of a darkside to him that at a certain point, I couldn't handle anymore. So I broke off the engagement. He didn't even ask me to reconsider. He just showed up at my apartment the next day with a warrant and several Peacekeepers." She closed her eyes as tears started to slip out.

You shook your head as you wiped her tears. "If you had agreed to marry Vision, do you think you'd have been alive today?" Wanda thought for a second before she shook her head. "I think Pietro would tell you that you made the right decision. In fact, I'd put my money on that being the first thing he tells you when you can understand him. I mean, he was so incredibly happy to see you again. If he didn't care about you, he would have held a grudge."

"I suppose you're right," she sighed as she rested against you again. The two of you fell asleep shortly after. And you were right.

Pietro was eventually given a communication tablet because during a strategy meeting, he had written down brilliant ideas. President Coin and commander Boggs both agreed that Pietro needed to be able to speak up in a way that everyone could understand. Beetee developed a chip that was implanted in Pietro's head. So the words appear on the tablet as fast as he can think them. He was even given options to either have it turned off completely or partially. Like if he wanted to have a private conversation, he could turn the voice option off and hand the tablet to the other person. And if he wanted to keep his thoughts private, he could turn the tablet off completely and not worry about a single thought being recorded or heard.

The first thing he told Wanda was that he doesn't blame her for what happened to him and that he is proud to see her as a happy and free woman. She sobbed and held onto him for the duration of the family time break.

Finnick wasn't successful in retrieving both assets from the arena which made the progression of the rebellion slow down. He was able to get the girl out but not the boy. Johanna claimed that the girl was annoying before, but without Peeta she was insufferable. You couldn't imagine what she was going through. You were grateful that you weren't in her shoes. That you had Wanda with you.

You tried to stay out of everything that concerned the Mockingjay and being a face of the revolution. You figured that the girl would snap out of it and realize that it was bigger than her. But eventually they started to look at you and Johanna. Finnick was willing to participate until the night that Annie was executed on live television at the District 4 Justice Building with four other confirmed rebels. The ones that were meant to help her escape the district. He tried to join her in the after life but you found him in time and got him to the infirmary.

You cried in Wanda's arms that night for the loss of your friends. You knew that Finnick won't ever be the same.

So the responsibility of the propos fell onto you and Johanna. She was great at acting for the camera. You remember that's how she was able to win her first games. No one thought the shy dainty girl from District 7 stood a chance in the arena until she got her hands on an axe.

Most of her propos were filmed on a soundstage. She had a blue baton and fought against the soldiers dressed in Peacekeeper uniforms. Then she'd recite the lines perfectly. But there was something missing. You couldn't put your finger on it. But she wasn't inspiring. She was impressive. But she didn't have what Katniss had. And neither did you.

You were a little more clumsy in your propo performances. You'd miss your marks and fumble on your lines. Luckily, with enough takes they were able to scramble something together. But it didn't have the fire it needed. It wasn't enough to inspire people to risk their lives for a cause that started to feel like it was dying.

"It's not dying, it's just," Wanda fails to come up with another term after you've expressed your concerns with her. She holds your face in her hands as she climbs onto your lap. Her eyes traveled along your face. She was searching for something. You didn't know what. "I can help you with your lines. Just, get me clearance to be with you during the day. You can do it. You can keep this revolution alive. I've seen that fire in you. You just need to have the right motivations."

You smirk, "I'm assuming that you believe that's you?" Wanda smacks your shoulder and you laugh as you kiss her cheek and trap her as she tries to escape your arms. "I'm kidding. I love you," you said as you gazed into her eyes. Wanda froze in your arms. It was the first time you'd said the words out loud. She didn't know what she expected to feel when she finally heard those words from you, but she didn't expect to feel so much at once. She felt joy, she felt love, she also felt a deep fear.

With tearful eyes, she leaned in and kissed your lips. "I love you too," she whispered against your lips. The two of you made slow and passionate love that night. Telling each other how much you'd felt for each other.

Wanda was right, with her as your director, you had the proper motivations for your filming. Plutarch was ecstatic with the new footage and things in the districts started to get rowdy again. People began to get motivated again.

Things in District 13 started to feel a little more claustrophobic with the successes of your propos. Strangers would thank you and request autographs. Women would invade your personal space. Wanda would step in their way whenever she was around but she couldn't be by your side twenty-four seven.

One of the times that a girl tried to kiss you, you were able to slip away and ran into an open vent to hide from her. That's where you found Katniss curled in a ball muttering to herself. "Sorry," you said when she was startled by your presence. "I didn't mean to scare you, I just..." you cleared your throat and fiddled with your medallion. "I thought people here in Thirteen would have more boundaries than those in the Capitol but I guess horniness is a universal problem." You tried to joke and you only got met with her glare.

You nodded once and took a deep breath as you braced yourself for what you might face when you climbed out. But then a nurse started to call for Katniss. The girl curled up further and you instinctively blocked the nurse's view of Katniss with your body. "Sergeant, you shouldn't be in here," the nurse grumbled. "Is Ms. Everdeen in there with you?"

"I'm offended by that question. She is a married woman, and way too young for me," you acted out dramatically. "I don't know if you've noticed, but I prefer someone a tad older than me. Don't tell her I said that though. She likes to keep her age a secret. But I mean come on simple math-"

"What are you doing in there?" The nurse asked sharply as she interrupted your rambling.

You hold up your medallion and the light of her flashlight bounces off of it. "I tripped walking and had to look for this," you explained. "It's one of a kind. Couldn't risk losing it."

"Well since you've found it, you can leave. This is a favorite spot for the Mockingjay to hide. No one has seen her for hours," the nurse explained.

"Well, you're going to have to look somewhere else because she's not here," you stressed as you stayed in your position. You were afraid if you moved, you would risk exposing that Katniss was also inside.

The nurse turns off the flashlight and leaves. You listened to her heavy footsteps and waited until you couldn't hear her. "Why did you do that?" Katniss startled you.

You yelped and held your hand to your chest as you dropped your coin. "sh*t, Everdeen. Warn a person," you patted the ground and your heart didn't stop racing until your fingers wrapped around the familiar metal. "I did it because I get needing a breather from all of the chaos out there. Besides, since you're out of commission, the rest of us have had to fill in for you. Let me tell you, I do not envy you. But I do sympathize with you."

"What are you talking about?" Katniss scowled at you.

"They need a face of the revolution. Panem needs your face but they've been settling for mine and Jo's," you elaborated with a small laugh. "Let me tell you, I think I'm steering people in the wrong direction. I've had people approach me for a good time more than thanking me for trying to keep this revolution alive," you shook your head as you stared at your medallion.

"I have had to endure listening to the nurses gush about you," Katniss muttered. You snorted. "I almost wished I could go back into the arena. It wasn't as painful."

"Believe me, no one wishes they could return to the arena more than I do," you said quietly. "If I could've warned my younger self, I probably would have told him to not win," you admit. Then you sigh. "But then I wouldn't have gotten to experience all of the good things I've managed to experience in my life."

"Ah, I've heard that you were quite popular with the citizens of the Capitol. I'm sure there's no regrets there when everyone wants to sleep with you, and has," Katniss replied sarcastically. You're sure that she thought it was a harmless remark. She had no idea the weight of her words. So you gave her some grace.

"Trust me Katniss, there's plenty of regrets there," you said as you looked at her. "You're lucky to be ignorant to the true life of a victor. Especially someone as desirable as you."

Katniss rolled her eyes, "I'm far from desirable."

"A lot of my buyers would disagree," you scoffed.

"Buyers?" Katniss questioned but you couldn't explain it. So you shook your head.

"Let's get you back to the infirmary," you said as you offered her your hand. "You need to get better," you said with a soft tone.

Katniss stared at your hand as the red emergency light shined on it, then looked at you with tears in her eyes. She shook her head. "I don't deserve to. Not when Peeta..." she couldn't finish her sentence and you nodded.

"You can't save him if you don't get better," you tried to encourage her. "If you want them to arrange a rescue mission, you have to give Coin what she wants."

"Coin?" She squeaked out in confusion.

The corner of your lips stretched up slightly. "She's the president of this district. Alma Coin is her full name," you inform her.

"Oh," Katniss nodded. Then she accepted your hand and the two of you left the space. But once the two of you were in the hallway, Katniss wouldn't move. "I can't go back. I... the hallucinations... I can't."

"Hallucinations?" You frowned. "What are you talking about?"

"The drugs, I don't know. Whatever they use to sedate me. It's," Katniss failed to continue then was interrupted when Gale Hawthorne spotted the two of you.

"Katniss, there you are," he said as he jogged down the corridor. As he got closer he slowed down and scowled at you. "I knew you weren't picky but I didn't think you were a predator," he glared at you as he pulled Katniss away from you.

"Gale," Katniss snapped at him as he stood between the two of you. "Leave Y/n alone. We weren't doing anything. Let's go."

"Stay away from her," Gale nearly growled at you. At the moment you refrained from laughing but later that night, you and Wanda couldn't stop laughing about it.

A couple of days after that, while you were sitting with Wanda and Pietro in the mess hall, a blonde girl in her early teens dressed as one of the nurses tapped your shoulder. It took you a moment to recognize Primrose Everdeen but after she claimed that her sister requested to see you after lunch, you were able to put the pieces together. Wanda encouraged you to go so you did.

When you met with Katniss, she wanted you to catch her up to speed with everything that had been going on. She didn't know who she could trust but she didn't think you'd lie to her. Gale treated her like she could break at any second. She didn't care to see her mentor or her district escort. Prim would go on and on about her day whenever she tended to Katniss, she didn't have any important information. The girl was in medical training. You seemed to be the best option.

And you proved to be. You would sit by her side for thirty minutes each day, catching her up on any information that you thought she should know. She appreciated the honesty.

She eventually got discharged from the infirmary. At her first meeting with Coin and Plutarch she requested that you were nearby. She was in there for about five minutes before she stormed out of the room. A week later, she was being dropped off in her home district. Plutarch's way of reminding the Mockingjay what's at stake. You were left behind to train, not that you minded. You weren't ever good at being a mentor. You don't know why you had the misfortune of being the one to find her that day. But the teenager seemed to have attached herself to you like a lost puppy.

When she returned from District 12, she asked you to help her with a list of demands. She said her sister suggested it and that was the first time you wished that you were in her position. During the lunch hour, she sat with you and Wanda and Pietro. Wanda was hoping that Katniss wouldn't recognize her since she's almost positive she offended the girl while doing her job when she had a job in the Capitol. Luckily, Katniss never put it together. Pietro would chime in with a suggestion or two and Katniss was grateful for the input. After her meeting with President Coin she confirmed that she accepted her role as the Mockingjay.

Eventually Katniss began to rely a lot more on others. She developed a closer relationship with Johanna to the point that she requested to be roommates with her. You laughed when Johanna told you that Katniss wasn't as bad as she originally made her out to be. With Katniss needing you less, you were able to allocate time for Finnick. He was in horrible shape from losing the love of his life in such a horrific way.

"I'm kind of glad she's dead," he'd said one day as he focused his attention on his rope. "At least she's not being tortured. At least it's all over for her. She suffered for a long time. She's not in pain anymore." It hurt you to hear the lifeless tone from the man that brought life to so much. He was the one to remind so many that through tragedy, there was still so much good. He's the one that snapped you out of your darkness. He had suffered so much for so long and he never let it show until Annie was executed. His words hurt for many reasons. That Annie was also your friend who could be quite funny and lively when she was stable. That she was someone anyone with a heart wanted to protect whenever she wasn't.

At the mention of how she suffered, you recall a day at the market. It was just you and Annie. She was rattling on and on about some recipe she was trying to remember. She was slightly frustrated because she couldn't remember a certain ingredient. When you began to list off any ingredients that you could think of, a fake spear nearly hit Annie in the face. It would have made contact had you not caught it in time. The kids that were messing with the toy were very apologetic until Annie started screaming. People around began to panic as Annie had a melt down and all you could think to do was to shield her away from everyone. Others who were sympathetic to her condition helped you get through the crowded market while you carried her. It took her a month to snap out of it. You stopped by to check on her each day and Finnick allowed an hour visit each time. She would sit in her bed and stare blankly at the wall. She wouldn't speak. She'd hardly blink. You then knew that there was no such thing as a victor. There were only survivors.

Sitting with Finnick was a lot like that. He wouldn't talk much and when he did speak, you almost wished you hadn't been there to hear it.

On the day that Peeta was finally broadcast in an interview with Caesar Flickerman, Katniss rose up from her table where she was sitting with her mom and sister. She had a look you'd seen many times from Finnick and Annie and you felt that same protectiveness. She shouldn't have had to experience that moment so publicly. You pulled her out of the cafeteria and took her to a private area to watch Peeta's interview.

There weren't a lot of areas with private television access but you were able to shoo people out of a control room to allow Katniss the privacy. You stood outside the door to prevent anyone from going inside. You didn't run inside until you heard her screams. You wrapped your body around her and taught her how to breathe again until she calmed down.

Shortly after that, Katniss started to do her propos. You asked Wanda to help direct her because she was so helpful with you. But when Effie caught wind of the possibility of a replacement, she swooped in. Unfortunately for her, Katniss wasn't an actor. She gave terrible delivery of her lines and her body language was too stiff. Even with Wanda's notes, Katniss's performances were silly. Then they tested adding you and Johanna to help carry the weight. The two of you read the lines and Katniss was only meant to be seen and not heard. But it still wasn't enough.

It wasn't until Haymitch walked in with his sarcastic claps that the team was able to put together what gave the Mockingjay her flare. She had to be in action. Her emotions had to be raw and real. Not with silly weapons and pretend fighting. Coin was resistant to letting the stars out into the front lines but Commander Boggs and Plutarch were able to convince her.

Wanda wasn't too thrilled about you going out to fight either. The last thing she wanted to do was risk losing you. "I know that it's important but," Wanda stands in the corner of your living quarters. "You have to swear to me that you're coming back here in one piece."

"Wanda, it's going to be safe," you said as you crossed the room and took her face in your hands with a light touch. "You heard the details of the mission. They're only sending us to a refuge hospital in District Eight. We won't encounter a battle. We'll be far from it. Besides, I hear Beetee has whipped up some badass weapons that aren't just for show." She cracked a smile and you kissed her. The two of you leaned your foreheads against one another with your eyes shut for a moment as you held each other's hands.

"Come back to me," she whispered.

"I promise, I always will."

The following day Beetee invited you, Katniss, Gale, and Johanna to his laboratory where he presented the new weapons for each of you. For Katniss he had a sleek black bow that hummed with life whenever she held it in position. She used a normal arrow to practice and according to her, the bow helped her with accuracy. Not that she had a problem with that according to Gale. He was given a crossbow that seemed to have similar features to Katniss's bow. The bows came equipped with two types of special arrows. One had explosives and the other had fire.

Johanna was given an especially sharp axe with nanotechnology that reshapes itself in order to stay that way. She was given a special glove with it. If she threw it too far, she was able to call it back to her no matter what it was stuck in or how far away it was. She thought it was a dumb idea at first and she was scared to even test it out since she couldn't trust that the axe wouldn't land in her hand the wrong way. But after a couple of run throughs, she couldn't wait to be given the chance to use the weapon.

Next you were given a special trident. There was a second one made just like it for Finnick and it hurt you that he wasn't healthy enough to be doing this with you. After all, he was part of this long before you were.

"The metal used for your trident and Johanna's axe aren't of this planet. There isn't a metal stronger than this," Beetee explained as you questioned why the trident was so light. You'd never wielded a trident so light since you were a child. You'd believed you were duped until you cut a test dummy's head clean off with barely a motion.

"Why aren't our arrowheads made with the same material?" Gale asked with a scowl.

"It's the rarest metal on earth, bigfoot," a man appeared seemingly out of nowhere as he tapped away on a tablet. "Explosives aren't enough for you?" He shakes his head. "We only had enough material for the Mockingjay suit, the axe, and the tridents."

"Wait, you mean to tell me that Katniss gets a special suit and the rest of us are vulnerable?" Johanna asked next. It wasn't fair.

"Take it up with Cinna. Oh wait, you can't," the man said in reference to the designer's death.

"What does Cinna have to do with this metal?" Katniss asked.

"It came from his ancestors. He said the metal was called vibranium. He only had a limited supply of the pure metal and he had enough of its fabric to make the Mockingjay armor. I only fulfilled his dying wishes," the man said.

"Meet Tony Stark, everyone," Beetee introduces the man. "He is almost as intelligent as I am."

"Charming," Tony rolled his eyes at the man. "If you don't mind, some of us have real work to do." He took the trident from your hands. "May I?" He said as he walked away without a response from you. He walked around the lab and took apart the rod. You figured that whatever he was up to with the weapon was only going to benefit you.

The trident ended up being very useful in District 8 when the Peacekeepers attacked the hospital.

Arriving at District 8, the group was brought inside a formerly abandoned warehouse. The entrance hall of the building was lined with stacks of casualties. You nearly threw up at the smell. Gale did have to step aside to vomit. Paylor commented that everyone will get used to the smell. You couldn't believe these were the conditions for those that couldn't make it to District 13. You had no idea how good you'd had it in that district until you walked into the main area of the warehouse.

It was full of sick and injured and dying men, women, and children. Those who weren't at risk of losing their lives were tending to those that were. It was eye opening. This was the cost of war. It made you queasy again. You nearly fainted. But you didn't want them to waste any of their supplies on you. So you continued to stand tall.

The first sighting of Katniss had the people stunned. They hadn't seen her until that point. No one outside of Thirteen had. An elderly woman asked her about her baby after she agreed that she was going to fight. You hadn't thought about the fact that Peeta had shocked everyone on the night of the interviews with the news of their private nuptials and baby announcement. It appeared that Katniss might've forgotten about that as well but she recovered quickly. She stated that she lost the baby.

Shortly after that Cressida, a director from the Capitol, was raving about the footage she got of Katniss and of the rest of you meeting refugees and handing them supplies they needed. Plutarch thought it would be more effective if the team was sent with gifts and not just gifting the injured with the presence of the Mockingjay. You and Johanna were whispering inside jokes to each other about how Gale didn't look at Katniss like they were related. Then the jokes turned into claims that the rumors of their home districts incest problems might not be rumors. Gale heard that one and turned around to say something. That's when the first bomb hit. The team sprung into action to get out of the building and that's when everyone saw the hovercrafts with the Capitol emblems on them. Katniss and Gale moved to get higher in order to shoot them down with their special arrows. You tried to shoot them down with the standard issue machine gun they provided you in case something like this happened but it was just a waste of bullets once an arrow took one of the crafts down.

A squad of Peacekeepers appeared and were firing their weapons. As you dove for cover, Johanna threw her axe. The weapon cut off three heads of Peacekeepers before it got stuck in a cement wall. On your hip, your trident was closed into a simple rod. You pulled it out and clicked a button that allowed it to expand out and reveal its sharp metal. You accidentally tapped another button and the blades became electrified.

"Cool," Johanna muttered as she watched your weapon become even deadlier. She caught her axe in her hand and together the two of you charged at the Peacekeepers. Taking multiple down at a time. Not stopping until the last one was gone. Unfortunately, even with all of the effort to stop the attack, the makeshift hospital was gone.

You were devastated by the sight. As was Katniss. She gave a harrowing speech into the camera as a Capitol ship burned behind her. She pointed to it and shouted, "If we burn! You burn with us!"

Wanda ran into your arms as soon as you stepped out of the hovercraft.

"I heard there was a attack in Eight. I thought, I thought," she shook as she failed to finish her sentence.

"It's okay," you whispered as you held her just as tight. "I'm okay."

Katniss watched you and Wanda. She remembered having a similar feeling in her first games when she heard the cannon go off and she couldn't find Peeta. Again when his heart stopped in the second games. She felt it recently when she saw Peeta on television for the first time since they'd been separated. She looked at Gale and wondered if she'd feel that kind of fear if his life was at stake. She knows she'd be afraid to lose him. But would she feel the same desperation she felt for Peeta? She didn't know. She did know that she the first impressions of you that she had before were completely wrong. She thought that, much like Finnick, you were just another victor that used their fame and riches to sleep with everyone and anyone. There was a lot of coverage of it in the years since you'd won. But watching the way you were with Wanda. She realized there was something a lot more to you than that.

"When you said your buyers would disagree," Katniss started as the two of you walked around the woods. She was in an argument with Gale because of what Peeta was being forced to say on television. Katniss still wanted to hunt but she wasn't allowed to without at least one other person with her. She invited Johanna but she said she'd rather be burned alive because at least that torture ended in death. So she asked you and you didn't feel up to dancing in front of another camera so you agreed. "What did you mean by that?"

"I shouldn't have said that to you," you said as you kept on walking.

"Well you did and I want to know what that meant," Katniss pressed on as she followed.

"Why? It's not important," you tried to move on from the subject and when she asked again you stopped walking. You turned to her and sighed. "Katniss, what I'm about to tell you isn't... It's not something you'll be able to easily forget. Are you sure that you want to know?"

Katniss nodded her head, "Yes, I need to know. I can't stop thinking about it. Why would you have buyers?"

"Because of Snow," you stated with a shrug. "I wasn't the only one. There are, sorry, were other victors that were auctioned off to the highest bidders. Those that were found to be... desirable in the eyes of Capitol citizens or officials were forced to comply. Snow allowed us access to certain drugs that took the edge off, made the meetings bearable. But if we ever resisted, he would kill someone that we cared about. It happened to Finnick. It happened to Johanna. It happened to me. So, Katniss, when I say that you are lucky. I mean that you are lucky," you stated before turning and walking on.

"I don't get it. Why would he do that?" Katniss eventually asked after a while. She had gone silent after your speech and you felt bad for your snarky comment. You hardly knew what she had to endure, she was from a poor district. She'd been in the Hunger Games twice. It wasn't a fair statement.

You shrugged at her question, "To remind us that we're still just as powerless as we were before we won? I don't know."

Katniss stopped you from walking further and turned you to face her. She scanned your face with her eyes then she hugged you. "I'm sorry you had to go through that," she said against your chest. You responded to the hug by wrapping your arms around her and rubbing her back.

"It's over now," you stated before pulling away.

"How did you manage to find someone to love through all of that? How did you allow yourself to open up to someone that way?" Katniss asked.

You smiled as you thought about the first time you met Wanda. "Love isn't something that you find or that you decide whether or not to accept. Not when it's true. The kind of love that I have with Wanda, it snuck up on me. I never expected it and I don't think she did either. I tried to fight it, of course. She did as well, I mean I might've been a victor but I was still from the districts. Falling for me was a giant risk for her. Not just career wise but her life was at stake as well. But eventually neither of us could deny it," you shook your head.

"Wanda isn't from District Four?" Katniss asked dumbly.

You laughed, "She's going to kill me when I tell you this because she thinks she might've offended you when she was doing her job but no, she isn't from Four. She's from the Capitol. She used to do the gossip segment for Capitol TV."

Katniss's eyes widened in recognition. "Now I remember her. Wow, I cannot believe I didn't recognize her. She's so human now."

You nodded, "Yeah, she hated her job but it's what more than paid the bills."

"It must've been difficult to protect that love," she sympathized. "Talk about star-crossed lovers," she muttered.

You stared at her for a moment as you considered asking all of the questions that had been swarming your mind long before you even met her. "You and your cousin?"

Katniss sighed through her nose as she looked at you, "He's not my cousin. He – I don't quite know what he is to me right now."

You nodded and bit your lips. "You and Peeta," you started and Katniss's eyes darted to the ground, "What, uh, was any of that real?"

Katniss shook her head then she nodded then she shook her head more. "I don't know. I've told myself a dozen times that it was just about survival but... I don't know." You nodded. You understood how complicated feelings could be. "Snow didn't make it any easier."

You frowned as your eyebrows knitted together. "What do you mean?"

Katniss took a deep breath, "He told me that if I couldn't convince him and the rest of the country that my moment with berries was an act of love and not an act of defiance... he'd well, he made it seem like he'd kill everyone I cared about but instead he just sent us back into the games." She looked off to the distance. "He wanted to avoid all of this." She shook her head again. "I thought he was crazy. I didn't think that my decision to save the person that saved my family and I when we were preteens would cause all of this."

"Katniss," you started, you wanted to tell her that there was so much more to this. But it wouldn't be much comfort to know that every person has just been a pawn in these games. "Let's just focus on hunting. That's something that does a lot more good than bad, right?"

Katniss nodded as she started walking again.

After that the two of you were able to kill two giant elks. It took a lot to carry down to the kitchen but somehow the two of you managed. The two of you were sharing a laugh when a broadcast of Peeta came onto the screens in the cafeteria. He looked worse than the first time they showed him. Katniss covered her mouth at the sight. You shut your eyes as you tried to push away the thoughts of what they could be doing to the poor boy. It wasn't fair.

He was once again calling for a cease fire. Well the first time he was asking for one. This time he was begging for Katniss to stop. You shook your head at his words. You have no idea what you would do in his position.

The next propo recorded was Katniss's idea. She wanted to show Peeta what happened to their district. So the film crew went out to District 12 to film Katniss and Gale. You and Johanna were forced to go just in case there was another attack. It would look good for the cameras.

Katniss and Gale walked around what was left of their home district, which was nothing but ashes. Bodies were melted together and you could imagine their despair as they tried to run out of the district. Katniss told the cameras what building used to be where in what used to be the town square. She stood on what once was Peeta Mellark's childhood home. Gale then told the cameras how the bombing went down. He claimed that the Mellark's had no chance to get out of there as some of the first bombs hit around the bakery.

The footage ended up saving many lives. They intercepted another interview with Peeta and he looked much worse than before. He heard Katniss's song as Beetee and Tony disrupted the broadcast and warned her that everyone would be dead by the morning. The footage ended with Peeta being knocked out with the butt of a rifle. The camera fell as his blood splattered on the floor.

The district had to evacuate even further into the Earth. They had a bunker just in case the Capitol tried to bomb the already underground district again. You stayed with Wanda and Pietro as the bombs shook the planet. It was hours before the walls stopped shaking. It might've been all night but without any way to track the time, it didn't really matter. People just wanted it to stop.

Once the hovercrafts were cleared, a team of volunteers were sent to rescue Peeta. Gale was the first to volunteer, you were the second. Despite Wanda's protests, you had to go. You had to help especially after Katniss had a meltdown. She was just like Annie. You couldn't save but maybe you could save Peeta. You couldn't help Finnick, but you hoped you could help Katniss.

The mission wasn't easy. You knew it wouldn't be. Peacekeepers were everywhere. If you hadn't had a weapon so special, you don't think you'd have made it out alive. Getting out of the Capitol was nearly impossible but somehow the team managed to get out with only a couple casualties. When you returned, you had to face the wives and husbands of those that didn't make it back. You don't think you'll ever forget their screams for those they lost. Just another reason to wake up in the middle of the night.

Wanda wouldn't open the door when you went to visit her. At breakfast the next morning she wouldn't look at you. At lunch she sat close to you but still refused to address your presence. By dinner, she decided to forgive you for volunteering to go on the possible suicide mission. She hugged your bruised and cut up body and glared at you when you winced.

"You wouldn't be in pain if you'd of stayed," she said and you smiled as you kissed her scowl.

"I love you too." She rolled her eyes as she continued to lean against you. "I told you that I'd always come back."

Wanda sighed deeply, "I hate that I fell in love with someone that'd risk their life to save the world. But I can't ask you to stop." She moved your overgrown hair behind your ear. "That hope in your heart is what made me fall in the first place."

"You really set yourself up for failure didn't you?" You asked with a grin as you also moved locks of her hair behind her ear.

"Gag, I'm trying to eat here," Pietro's tablet went off and he quickly fumbled with trying to turn it off as you and Wanda laughed.

With Peeta in the infirmary, Katniss began to ignore her schedule. She spent her training hours in his room. She didn't want him to feel alone since none of his family made it out. A friend of his, Delly Cartwright, did make it to District 13. She was visiting when Katniss wasn't. Peeta was in terrible shape when he was rescued. It was months before he was well enough to be released and in that time more districts became free from the ruling of the Capitol.

You were only sent to other districts when they wanted to film supplies being distributed to them. To show that District 13 cared. You felt off about it but it kept you off of the frontlines where you could be safe. And since the Mockingjay was refusing to do much outside of helping Peeta back to health, there wasn't much else expected of the Star Squad. The nickname for the squad of victors that always had the cameras on them.

You would visit Finnick when you could in order to get him to eat after he'd nearly starved himself to death. You were kind and paitient with him until one day you unleashed your frustration with him.

"I'm so sick of your pity party Finnick!" You shouted after he just went on and on about wanting to be dead. "Do you know how much medical supplies they've wasted to keep you alive? You're not even grateful!" You started to pace the room.

"I never asked them to -" he began to shout back.

"Well too damn bad! They did! I promised Annie that I would always be there for you and I'll be damned if you make me break that promise!"

"She's dead! What she wanted doesn't matter anymore!"

"Of course it matters!" You shouted back just as desperate. "Finnick, she loved you. And you loved her! She's gone and you're still here. It's not fair. None of this is fair. But if you were out there, you would see how selfish you've been! If you had a conversation with ten people here, you'd find out that more than half of them have lost the loves of their lives and they are still fighting!" You shook your head at him. "I've been patient with you but you're pathetic. And I can't keep doing this anymore," you left the room.

You didn't see him again until a few months later when he walked into the training room. He looked healthier than the last time you'd seen him. Finnick wouldn't go near you but you didn't mind. You preferred that he hated you. It meant he was alive.

"We need something to celebrate," Plutarch said as he eyed Katniss and Peeta. The two were always seen together. If you spotted one alone, the other wasn't too far behind. You teased her about it during training once and she jabbed you in the ribs with a baton. You stopped teasing her whenever there was a weapon around. "We were thinking of a wedding..." he kept moving his eyes towards the clueless teens.

Katniss shrugged when she felt his eyes on her, "That's not a terrible idea. Who's getting married?" You shook your head as you failed to hide your amusem*nt.

"You're not serious?" You look at Plutarch and Coin. "You're going to force those kids to fake their marriage a second time?"

"Well, seeing as they already claimed-"

"Wait us?" Katniss finally caught up.

"I don't know guys," Peeta started.

"Hear us out-" Plutarch tried to explain again.

"Ugh, please stop," Johanna cut in with a roll of her eyes. "It's already been done. We can't keep spinning this broken record. I'd sooner gouge my eyes out than attend their wedding."

"That's not-" Katniss frowned.

"No one was asking you, Johanna," Plutarch finally got a full sentence in.

You looked over at Wanda as you considered volunteering. She met your eyes and subtly shook her head. You sighed and turned to the table. "What about Johanna and..." your eyes scanned the room. You smirked as they landed on the glowering raven haired grey eyed man sitting across from Katniss and Peeta. "Gale," you grinned. "Cressida has said that he has a face for the camera. And come on, what's more unifying than a miner from Twelve marrying a lumberjack from Seven?" You could have sworn that you saw smoke coming out of Gale's ears. "Shows that we're all the same."

"That's not a bad idea," Finnick chimed in.

"Screw you, where'd you come from anyway?" Johanna snapped at her friend.

"I'm just saying, no one would expect it," Finnick shrugged.

President Coin leaned forward on the table. She looked at each face then she said, "No. It has to be the Mockingjay."

"Why?" You challenged her.

"Excuse me?" Coin stared at you directly.

"Why does it have to be her? She's a kid," you doubled down. "If you make them get married, you're no better than Snow." The room went silent. No one has challenged the president so openly before. They weren't sure what they were supposed to do.

"We'll do it," Katniss said. "Don't punish Y/n. I've confided in them a lot and they're only trying to protect me." She defended you. "Which I appreciate," she turns to address you directly, "but it's not necessary. Besides, what's another fake wedding?" She looked at Peeta who appeared to be very displeased by the news.

"Excuse me," Peeta rose from his seat and left the room. Katniss stood up and Haymitch stopped her.

"Let him be," the older man said gruffly. She sat back down as she watched the door.

"Perfect!" Plutarch clapped his hands. "Perfect! We'll get a move on. We only have a couple of weeks to pull this off!" He gathered his notes and walked off with his team.

You didn't want any part of the fake wedding because it made you uncomfortable. The thought of making the two teenagers continue to put on a show when they still didn't know what they wanted. It also made you look at the president of District 13 differently. When you first arrived, you thought she wanted true change. As you got to work under her for an extended period of time you began to question if she was just as power hungry as Snow was.

Unfortunately, you couldn't stay away from the wedding party. Since District 12's traditions weren't something that were celebratory or entertaining enough. They are private and intimate. And there isn't enough in District 13 to spare for a Captiol type wedding. It was too risky to hold it in the woods which is something that comes from the District 7 traditions. Finnick offered up District 4 traditions which are a little more extravagant than District 12 but were doable compared to District 7 and Capitol traditions. That brought on your involvement in the whole endeavor. You kept trying to pass responsibilities off to Finnick but he was having to catch up on training since it'd been close to a year since he was rotting away in the infirmary.

Wanda thought your wedding planning persona was cute. She'd never seen you throw yourself into something so much before. Considering that before the rebellion she only saw you for a few hours every few months, she was happy to learn about any side of you. She kissed your cheek when you were doing a seating chart that made the most sense visually.

"Is this how you'll be when we get married?" Wanda asked as she leaned her head against your shoulder.

"Oh, we're going to get married, are we?" You retorted as you erased a name from the chart and wrote it somewhere else.

Wanda rubbed your other shoulder as she smiled. "Of course we are," she kisses your cheek again. "I don't join rebellions for just anyone, you know?"

You made a face. "I thought you did this for Pietro." She walked in front of you and sat on your lap as she wrapped her arms around your neck.

"What happened to him made me realize how unfair the system is and I wished I could do something to change it." She held your face in her hands and played with your hair as she held your eye contact. You loved getting lost in those enchanting hazel green eyes. "I didn't get involved until the night I realized I loved you. I remember it so vividly, I nearly thought my heart was going to explode out of my chest." She grabbed your hand and held it over her chest. She shook her head. "You were fast asleep but for a moment I couldn't tell if you were breathing. Then I imagined that you died and just the mere thought," her eyes teared up and you reached up with your free hand to cradle her face. "I never thought I was capable of loving someone as much as I love you."

You felt yourself getting choked up by her confession of love. "I, wow," you reacted with tears on the brim of your eyes. "I had no idea you felt so deeply about me." You pressed your hand against her chest. "I am lucky that you trust me with your heart." You leaned your head against hers and closed your eyes. "I hope I'm worth all of this death and destruction to you."

Wanda nuzzled against you and pulled you closer to her at your words. "You are worth the hope of a brighter future. That's what I'm fighting for." The two of you held onto each other for a long time. You got lost in the moment with her. You felt your heart beat in time with hers. Even though she didn't want to marry you at the time, you felt as though your souls connected that day as a promise of forever.

At the wedding, everyone read from scripts that Effie and Plutarch wrote together. It was a cheesy and silly wedding. There were moments that made the event feel real. Like when Peeta teared up as Katniss was walked down the aisle by her sister, Primrose. Or when Katniss got choked up and went off script at the start. Not a single word she said was fabricated. Peeta didn't read his lines either.

The unifying kiss lasted a bit longer than it should have. It made you happy to see that Katniss was making a complicated situation a little less complicated. She looked happy. So did Peeta. So did everyone else. The celebration after felt real. People danced and sang. You and Wanda got to have a moment on the dance floor as well. You held her so close as the two of you swayed together at a slow song. You moved with her as the dance became a little more elaborate and the music became upbeat. There was laughter where there used to be quiet whispers. It was a bright occasion.

Which was nice to have the memory of the celebration when the war began to take a turn. The Capitol had yet to be overturned. They began to draft as many able bodied men and women to become Peacekeepers in order to infiltrate the more radicalized districts. Attacking when they least expected.

In Thirteen, they began to release soldiers that passed their final exams to districts the second they passed. At a certain point it began to feel like they rigged the system in order to send the troops out as fast as possible. There were, however, certain soldiers that couldn't leave for a reason or another. Like Pietro was an asset to the war room which they kept him locked away in for the majority of his days. Or if a soldier had a certain medical condition that prevented them from leaving.

You didn't feel that you were ready when you finished your exam but you sat in your living quarters as you stared at your assignment. Wanda walked in after her exam and sat on the bed with you. She laid her head on your shoulder as she frowned down at your papers. "That's what one of those looks like," she muttered. You made a face as you noticed she was empty handed.

"You're not going on a mission?" You asked as you moved your arm to set your hand on her hip.

"No," she said as she nuzzled into your side more. "I didn't pass. I, um, I guess they found... something," she shook her head and pulled away from you. "I have a medical condition that prevents me from going."

Your eyes widened with fear. "What's wrong, Wanda? Are you going to be okay?"

Wanda smiled with tears in her eyes, "I'm going to be just fine. Don't you worry about me. I-" She was interrupted by a knock.

Commander Boggs stood at the door with two other soldiers. "I'm here to personally retrieve you. It seems as though the Mockingjay made plans of her own yesterday. We leave in a half hour. Say your goodbyes now." He stepped away and shut the door as a courtesy.

You turned to Wanda with a pounding heart. You didn't want to leave without knowing that you would be coming back to her. "Wanda, I love you. I can't lose you. Please tell me, this medical condition isn't serious."

Wanda held both of your hands in hers. "Y/n. I'm fine. I'm better than fine. I will tell you everything when you come back to me. Because you will come back to me, right?"

You nodded and pulled her into a tight hug. Then you kissed her lips and memorized the way her soft lips felt against yours. With your eyes closed, you leaned your forehead against hers and whispered, "I will always come back to you." You promised just as Boggs knocked on the door to signal that it was time. You pulled your medallion out of your pocket and handed it to Wanda. "This has always been my good luck charm. I want you to have it." Wanda shook her head but you put it in her hand and closed her fingers into a fist as you stood up to leave. You reminded her that you loved her. She told you that she loved you as tears streamed down her face.

The Star Squad was assembled and meant to be safe from any combat. The group was meant to be filmed not to engage in real battle. The team wasn't even supposed to exist but with Katniss cutting her honeymoon short and sneaking off to the Capitol on her own, Coin was forced to make it look like that was her idea. You couldn't be mad, Katniss wanted Snow dead. Everyone did. But you were a little upset that she didn't include you in the plan once you found out that Peeta and Johanna helped her escape.

The team moved through the rundown Capitol with precaution, using a device nicknamed the Holo. It mapped out and scanned for PODs, which were unpredictable traps planted throughout the streets. You couldn't believe what had become of the once vibrant city. You knew where Wanda's home was from where you stood, no matter where you were. You remember taking long walks with her through the city during your time with her. The two of you were always in some ridiculous disguise to allow for privacy.

She would race you when she was in a playful mood. The two of you would accidentally knock into others with childish snickers. Other times, you would spot a cheesy gift at one of the many stands at the market. You would buy her something that you knew she'd hate in order to share a laugh then surprise her with something she'd love. You eventually found out that she kept both types of gifts in a box under a floorboard under her bed.

It was one of the signs that let you know she loved you.

You think about her when Homes and Mitchell are blown up. The explosion was loud and had your ears ringing. Gale had to grab you by your vest to get you running as guns were firing. The team ran to hide in three different buildings. Katniss and Gale used their explosive arrows to blow up the Peacekeepers vehicles before they could use their explosives against the Star Squad.

Boggs and Jackson were able to get everyone directed into a single building and reconvene. They agreed that the best course of action was to retreat back to base but Katniss cut in with her personal mission, claiming it was Coin's assignment. "I was sent here to kill Snow. Coin wants us to broadcast the entire thing in order to get the Peacekeepers to surrender," she wasn't convincing but no one was in a position to argue when the team was closer to the Presidential Mansion than they were to safety.

Boggs didn't challenge her. He agreed to follow her lead. He projected the map of the city to show that the number of PODs had grown. The best chance was underground. Pollux, a former avox turned rebel cameraman and soldier, volunteered his knowledge from the years of experience he had working in the sewer system of the Capitol.

You had to pretend that the water that you sloshed through was the ocean that you once played in as a child. "Thinking about home?" Finnick asked you as he nudged your shoulder.

"Yeah," you responded, "you?"

He nodded his head, "although this smell isn't making it easy. I miss that sea salt smell. I didn't mind tasting that air."

"Aw man," you shook your head as you remembered the crystal blue sea. "When all of this is over, the first thing I'm doing is taking Wanda to Four. She deserves a nice beach day after everything she's been through."

"I think we all do," Finnick added. "But don't worry, I won't be too needy when I come along. Not like you were." His joke hit you harder than it was meant to. It felt like a different life. You invaded Finnick and Annie's home because you couldn't be alone. You joined them on their dates whenever you needed the company. Annie took care of you whenever she was capable of doing so. She was such a great person. She didn't deserve to go the way she did.

"It's okay, I deserve it," you patted his back. He hugged you from the side while the both of you continued to walk through the sewers. You missed him so much while he was lost. You were happy to have him back. You hoped that one day he would move on because that's what Annie would have wanted.

The team eventually found a dry space to rest for a few hours. You were the first on the watch rotation. You were jumpy. There was a feeling in the pit of your stomach that warned you. In the moment, you ignored it. When you fell asleep after you woke up Boggs, you continued to ignore the feeling.

Then you woke up to screams and being shoved. Katniss was shoving you awake. Everyone ran out of the dry space and ran through the tunnels as they were chased by mutts. You tried to shoot at the mutts but you couldn't slow down enough to aim. Directions were being shouted out and in the hysteria the team members that weren't being mauled by the faceless creatures ran into an area that was meant for maintenance workers. Several of them ran up a ladder to escape. Just as Katniss was about to climb, a creature took her down which sent you and Peeta running to her rescue. Finnick was shouting from the opening for everyone to hurry.

With your trident you were able to fend off the creatures in front of you but it was Johanna that managed to protect you from behind. Katniss and Peeta managed to get the creatures away from them with Gale's help as well as yours and Johanna's. Katniss ran up the ladder first, followed by Peeta, then Johanna. It was you and Gale that were next when another wave of mutts came rushing through. You tried to climb up as fast as you could to allow Gale the time to climb but both of you were caught by the wave. Just as you were being pulled up by Peeta, your legs were caught by a mutt and had you dragged back down.

If it hadn't been for your special trident, you wouldn't have made it out of the sewers alive. You managed to save what was left of Gale. His right leg was shredded and gushing blood. The two of you crawled through the tunnels together and managed to catch up with what was left of the team. Katniss looked relieved but the feeling didn't last long as a bullet fired and hit Gale in the head. You had been the one holding him up as it happened. His blood and his brains painted your face.

"Run!" You shouted as more Peacekeepers appeared. Katniss was in shock, you had to grab her as you ran through the parking garage. Deadly light beams flashed from the ceiling at random. The first one took down Messalla. He turned to dust as fast as the light touched him. "Run!" You screeched at the top of your lungs again as the floor shredded behind the Leeg sisters. Leeg 2 tripped over herself and fell into the blades. Leeg 1 turned as she heard her sister's cries, that split second of hesitation took her life.

Finally, the lights stopped as did the blades and the remaining members of the Star Squad were running out of the death trap and into the dark streets of the Capitol. There were digital and physical posters everywhere of the rebels' faces, including yours and the other former victors. There didn't seem to be a place to hide. The adrenaline coursing through your veins had you jumping at every sound as you tried to think of where to hide.

"I know where we are," Cressida said breathlessly, "I know where to go." She guided the team to a clothing shop. A woman with tiger-like features answered the door and rushed everyone inside. She brought the team of rebels into the basem*nt. You took careful steps as you observed the space with your weapon drawn. Cressida, Castor, and Pollux were already standing around the basem*nt. When you deduced that it was safe, you collapsed on the last step.

You woke up with a gasp of air, startled by the delicate touch of the woman that was hosting you. She had been stitching a gash on your bicep when you woke up. You frowned as she retreated. You knew her but you couldn't remember how before you slipped back into unconsciousness. The adrenaline had deserted your body, leaving it exhausted without an ounce of energy.

"Wanda," you muttered as you felt someone cradling your face in their hands. You leaned into the touch and forced your eyes open, anxious to see the love of your life. It was Johanna that you saw instead. She was wiping your face with a wet cloth. "Oh, it's you," you muttered as you shut your eyes again.

"Shut up, you know you're happy to see me," she said softly as she continued to clean your face. "Finnick made it. So did the two love birds. Cressida and her bugs are alive too," she quietly informed you.

You tried to swallow a lump forming in your throat but the emotions hit you too hard to hide them. "I couldn't save him," you said through your tears. Johanna nodded as she continued to clean Gale's blood from your face with a frown as tears built up in her eyes. She cared about you a lot and it hurt her to see you fall apart like that. You stopped crying and sat up as you felt guilty for the display of emotion when everyone in the room had lost people. You weren't even close with Gale. It just sucked with how hard you fought to keep him alive and just when you thought you had, he was gone before you or anyone could do anything.

You looked around the room and saw Finnick cleaning the blades of his trident. Cressida, Pollux, and Castor were tinkering with an old model of a Capitol television. Katniss and Peeta were holding each other as they slept. Her nose was red and her cheeks were stained with tears. You were certain were shed for the loss of her former hunting partner and best friend.

"When do you think we'll continue?" You asked Johanna with a mouth full of a sandwich she'd handed you.

She took a slow breath as she considered her answer. "When the next opportunity presents itself. We're in too deep to turn back now." You nodded as you chewed.

Pollux cheered as he managed to repair the television. A mandatory broadcast that invited all Capitol citizens to Snow's mansion gave the opportunity to infiltrate the mansion. But it was only safe for two people to go. You were the first to volunteer. Katniss was the second. Peeta protested but Katniss was able to convince him that it had to be her. His prosthetic leg was broken, he couldn't take your place even if Katniss wasn't able to talk him down. Finnick almost talked you out of going but he didn't see the point.

"When Wanda asks, I tried to take your place," Finnick said as he helped you get dressed up.

"Oh if I ever tell her this story, you did take my place," you joked. He patted your shoulder as he agreed with a grin. He adjusted the holster with the trident inside so that it was still hidden but gave you easy access. Then he handed you a stolen Peacekeeper rifle and helped you hide it under the heavy coat. "If this goes south, tell her I'm sorry and that I love her," you told Finnick with fear in your eyes.

Finnick sighed, "Things will go south if you think like that."

"Promise me that you'll tell her," you stated firmly. He agreed to deliver the message. "And make sure that when all of this is over and we come out on top that she is taken care of. If they still give us our winnings, make sure she gets mine. And that she can have my place in Four. Make sure that you disable all of the bugs," you speak urgently as if you don't tell him these things now, no one will ever know your last wishes.

"Y/n," Finnick looked you in the eye with worry, "Should I take your place? You have a life to start after this. I don't. Maybe I should-"

"There's no time," Tigris warned as she rushed away from the windows. "You and Katniss have to leave now."

You nodded and turned back to Finnick, "I'll be fine I just want to make sure that Wanda is taken care of just in case." Finnick nodded as he agreed to ensure that Wanda was taken care of.

"But you're going to come back, and you're going to take care of her yourself, okay?" Finnick encouraged as he hugged you. You closed your eyes as you stood in his arms before you stepped away and turned to see Katniss and Peeta saying their goodbyes. They shared a kiss and you looked away as you felt like you were imposing in a private moment.

"Katniss, we better go," you said as you put your hood over your head. She nodded as she stepped away from her twice faux husband.

Together, the two of you walked out into the crowded street. You kept your head down enough to not get noticed but not so much to have your view obstructed. You and Katniss got pretty close to the gates, it made your heart pound so hard that you could hardly hear anything. But with each step closer, you grew more confident that you'd be able to pull this off. Then you saw Peacekeepers were pulling hoods down. In a panic, you and Katniss turned around only to find more soldiers pulling hoods down. So you both turned back towards the pit before the gate where they were separating children from their parents.

You lost your confidence as you couldn't figure out where to go from there. You were both trapped. Then guns started firing. "It's the rebels!" Someone shouted and you pushed Katniss ahead of you to get her closer to the gates. Your hood fell and Peacekeepers charged towards you. With all of the innocent civilians around, you didn't want them to get caught in the crossfire so you dropped the rifle and pulled out the trident.

You fought off the Peacekeepers as you saw rebel trucks rolling through the crowd. A small boy ran up to you and kicked you in the knee as you fought off Peacekeepers. The small distraction allowed a Peacekeeper to get the upper hand on you as he took your trident from you and tried to stab you through the chest with it. But because of the programming that Tony and Beetee did to the weapon, the blade disappeared before it could harm you and the part of the staff that he was holding heated until he dropped the weapon. You caught the trident as it fell and stabbed him through the chest.

You pulled it out and rushed to find Katniss when everyone stopped as Capitol hovercrafts loomed over the pit of children and dropped parachutes as if they were gifts from sponsors. The children reached out to them in excitement. You had just found Katniss when the parachutes exploded.

The two of you fell back and you hit your head hard on a broken piece of concrete. Everything went to black as you heard nothing but screams.

When you woke up, you were in a hospital. It was white and bright. You'd been in there before but not in District 13. This was the hospital in the Capitol. Your heart picked up with fear until you realized that your hand was being held by Wanda as she slept in a chair by your bedside.

Your heart rate on the monitor slowed down as you calmed. You wiggled your fingers to try and bring circulation back to them. As you did, you felt the familiar shape of your medallion pressing against the palm of your hand. Wanda sat up as she felt you move. "Oh thank goodness!" She cheered as she finally saw your eyes open. She leaned in and kissed on the mouth then she leaned her forehead against yours with closed eyes. "You came back to me," she whispered.

"I promised, didn't I?" You replied with a raspy voice.

She laughed through the tears that started to fall in her relief. "You can't make that promise again because you're never leaving my side again. Do you hear me? Never," she demanded as she pulled back to look at you. Her eyes danced as they scanned your features. "Our child needs you almost as much as I do," she said in a broken whisper.

"Our what?" Your eyes widened at the news and then it clicked for you. That's the condition she was in that she couldn't leave Thirteen on assignment for. Wanda nodded as she wiped her tears.

"We can talk more after the doctor sees you," she said as she hit a button on the wall. You couldn't believe the news. You couldn't believe that the rebels had won. You had no idea that when you were knocked out by the concrete that you would be waking up in a new and free world. It was not how you saw the war ending, but you didn't mind. You were happy it was over.

The rebels won but President Coin didn't. She wanted to implement a version of the Hunger Games with only Capitol children. Any child born in the Capitol or from a female Capitol citizen would be eligible in the first reaping. First. That word led you to believe that there would be future games. That made your future child eligible. You voted against it. But unfortunately, the votes for it outweighed those against. You hadn't realized that Katniss was angry about the loss of her sister until you heard about Prim's death.

Then at the ceremony where she was supposed to shoot President Snow with an arrow, her aim went a bit higher and instead pierced President Coin in the heart with her arrow. A rush of people fled towards the stage to aid Coin as she fell to the front of it. Snow laughed himself to death as he choked on his own blood. Katniss was about to eat a nightlock pill before Peeta took it from her. She was then taken into custody. You couldn't see her for days while a committee discussed her fate.

You did speak to her character when the committee brought you in for questioning. In the footage of the day, they caught a moment between the two of you when she looked at you and you looked away with a disappointed expression. They used that to accuse you of knowing that she planned on killing the president. You revealed Coin's shocking plans for the future Capitol Games. You didn't go into the details of the disagreement, you only revealed that there was one.

She was sent to District 12 on conditions that you weren't clear on because they were highly confidential. But there were rumors. When you got the chance, you visited her to find out what she was thinking when she voted to have a new version of the Hunger Games and what she was thinking when she shot Coin instead of Snow. You had so many questions for her. But, when you found her in her home you decided that it didn't matter what her motivations were. She was lost in her grief. Peeta lived in the home he was awarded after their games and he said that he checked on her when she allowed it but there wasn't much else he could do for her other than keep her alive until she was ready to live again.

You thanked him and offered your support whenever he or she needed it. Then you returned to District 4. There, you and Wanda were helping the district rebuild. She loved it in the district more than either of you thought she would. She was able to bond with the community better than she did when she was in the Capitol. Even her twin brother, Pietro, found a life for himself in District 4.

The two of you didn't marry until after the baby was born. Well, babies. Wanda gave birth to Tommy and Billy in the new District 4 hospital that you helped build with a team of men and women and other non-gender conforming persons. They were the first boys to be born in the new world. The first baby to be born after the war was over was a girl. She was born a couple of months before the twins were born.

You cried as you held your sons in your arms. Not only because there were so many close calls that almost prevented you from experiencing the moment. But because without the war, without the games, without all of the hardships, those boys wouldn't exist. You never thought that you'd ever be grateful for the suffering you endure until you held your boys and thought of them as the reward.

For the wedding Pietro and Johanna each carried one of the babies. Johanna was your best woman and Pietro was Wanda's man of honor. Each baby had a ring that was attached to a pillow. Finnick officiated the ceremony. Many were in attendance, including a much healthier Katniss and Peeta. You attended their own private wedding ceremony a few years later. Surprisingly, a sober Haymitch Abernathy with a ring on his marital finger and a smile as he sat next to his wife, Effie Trinket. She didn't think Effie Abernathy had the same ring to it. Your wedding wasn't televised and you were grateful for the privacy as you and Wanda celebrated the union with the people that mattered in your lives. It wasn't a show for strangers to tune into or to be inspired by. It was just a fun night that celebrated love.

Life was good.

But life wasn't good throughout the entire country. There were still people that weren't entirely happy with the changes that were being implemented. People were losing jobs. Not everyone had a home to return to and those that did had expected an upgrade for their troubles. Things weren't moving at the pace that everyone wanted. You carried a guilt for having such a peaceful life that you chose to get involved in anyway that you could.

"I have to go to the Capitol next week," you sighed as you told Wanda with a frown while you laid with her in bed.

"What for?" She asked as she sat up.

"I have to meet with the head of the housing department to discuss a few things and offer my help," you stated vaguely, you were tired and comfortable. You hardly had the energy to go into detail.

"You have to be careful when you're there, I've heard that crime rates are high right now," Wanda warned as she settled back against you. "Apparently there's a group of former Peacekeepers that weren't too happy about losing their positions of power. They've been targeting people from the districts that live in or even visit the Capitol."

"Please, I've survived an arena and a rebellion. I can handle a bunch of bigots," you muttered. "But I hear you," you kissed her cheek. "I'll be careful," you promised with your eyes closed. "I love you," you whispered as you started to fall asleep.

Visiting the Capitol opened your eyes to how bad things had gotten there. It wasn't the lively city it once was. It looked like any other district before the rebellion and before the rebuilds and renovations. You only saw so much from the back window of the vehicle you were being driven in. But it was more than enough to get your guard up. Your meeting went well with the woman in charge of the housing and other restorations throughout the districts. She was very receptive to your idea's on the kinds of houses that people should be living in as well as the kinds of fundraising efforts that can be done and the jobs that could be made in each district. She loved the proposal you had put together and when the meeting was over, she invited you out to celebrate. You should have declined but you knew how important networking was for the project. She brought you to one of the more high end bars in the Capitol. The buildings that surrounded the bar were covered in tags and there were tents for the homeless across the street. You couldn't believe it had gotten so bad.

As you celebrated with the woman, she introduced you to prospective investors. You chatted with many people throughout the night until you were ready to leave. But when you stepped out, the car you called for wasn't there. You looked around confused and that's when someone snuck behind you and pulled a sack over your head.

You fought against them but more people came along. You couldn't see which made it difficult to tell how many people there were as you tried to fight them off without a weapon. Which one of them had. They hit the front of your knee hard enough to have you collapse to the ground. You were almost certain that they had shattered your kneecap. The group of them kicked and hit you from every direction until you stopped moving.

Two of them lifted you up by your arms and dragged you to a truck. They drove you to the center of the city and strapped your wrists against the new Mockingjay statue. They burned the old Capitol emblem into your abdomen, then they left you to be found in the morning.

By the time they brought you down from the statue, there was no saving you.

Finnick found out from the news that morning. He ran over to your house to try and stop Wanda from turning on the television but he was too late. He walked into the home and found her screaming on the floor as her brother held her. The image of you hanging on the Mockingjay statue was still on the screen. Finnick dropped to his knees and cried into his hands.

Johanna found out in the home of a woman she'd met the night before. She ran out and got on the first train to Four to find out if the broadcast was just a scare tactic. It was the only thing the news showed all day. But she kept telling herself that it didn't even look like you. That it had to be a fake doll or something. But when she got to Four and found the home of distraught loved ones, she had to accept what she refused to believe. You were gone for good. Your six-year-old boys ran up to her with scared and confused expressions. They didn't know yet. She took them to their room to distract them until she could find out what Wanda was planning to do.

Peeta was in the hospital when he found out. He asked the nurse to shut off the broadcast while Katniss slept. He shed silent tears as he held their daughter. He was supposed to call you the day before to tell you the news but he thought it couldn't hurt to wait a day. He didn't inform Katniss of your brutal passing until she was discharged from the hospital the next day. She was furious about the delay.

Haymitch read about the incident in the newspaper. He sat up in his lounge chair, getting ready to tell Effie but she walked into the living room with a tear streaked face and fell into his lap. The older couple held each other tight as they mourned the tragic loss of their friend.

President Paylor wasn't putting up with the violence in the country from that point. It wasn't the way you imagined making a difference, but your death was not in vain. It opened the eyes to the public and to the government how society was failing. How things hadn't changed enough. Harsh laws were implemented to put a stop to the hate crimes that were being done throughout the country. Rewards were given to those that turned in the murders that committed the acts. It was a sort of witch hunt but the end result was a peaceful Panem.

When it came to finding the group of people that murdered you, it took a couple years longer than your wife liked. There was a trial. And when they were appointed guilty, Wanda put in the request to be the one to take their lives. It was denied. She wasn't allowed to attend their execution. Finnick did, for her. She needed to hear that they were gone for good from someone she trusted.

When he returned to Four that night, he confirmed that each of the people had been executed. Wanda broke down and cried in his arms because it didn't change anything for her. You were still gone. She was still angry.

"You should have promised to come back to me," she whispered to your grave stone as she kneeled in front of it. "You always came back when you made that promise." She weaved your medallion between her fingers as she spoke. The action made her feel close to you. She watched you do it for many years. She thought she'd watch you do it for the rest of her life. Although you would have loved to have more time with her, you were grateful for the time that you did have with her. Because your death made a safer Panem for her and your loved ones.

Though significant sacrifices were made, in the end, you wouldn't have changed a single thing.

Or would you?

Read The Tribute for a different turn of events.